Grateful Mama

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Snuggles and sighs to kisses and giggles.
I am so grateful you are here, Kindred.

Two Weeks Old

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

How can someone be so brand new but feel like you can't even really remember life before them?

Wee Little French Miss

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Little Gnome Hats

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Wasting no time getting into the adorable little hats made by Aunt Christine!!

Heading home

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Welcome, little Kindred

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

We left before the sun rose to go check in for my induction. Kindred's last stress test wasn't stellar, I am past 40 weeks, and the pain in my hips is horrible at this point. So, my OB believed we have a good reason to induce. I've only ever been induced so I was okay with it.

Are we sure Berg is going to hold it together? He was looking a little crazy eyed.

This was our view at sunrise.

A lot happened that I am still not sure about, but I believe the midwife on-call did not provide good care for us. I've been induced twice. I had no issues whatsoever. This time, the pitocin was too much too soon. My body did not handle it well, Kindred did not handle it well. Questions I had about complications that were occuring were not being answered. Her exams were excruciating. That has also never happened to me. I was in tears by the time this man, Bob (of course his name was Bob) came in to give me an epidural...and he was the first person I felt I could trust all evening. He was very reassuring. My OB finally arrived and said that even though EVERYTHING WAS TOTALLY OKAY AT THE MOMENT he suggested we do a c-section. I was in the OR within minutes and everyone was moving fast. So fast, they almost forgot to let Bergen in the room. I believe 100% that Kindred was in some level of danger. But, suddenly, she was out. They crowded around her for a few minutes and then they finally let us see her. And, I have never been so happy to see someone in my whole life. When Dylan was born, we hadn't lost Brooklyn, I didn't know about the balanced translocation, and I did not know how lucky I was to meet him. With Kindred, I knew all of that as I first looked at her face. It took us ten years and many heartaches to finally have our daughter. Blessings upon blessings on this day.

Kindred Millay, you are so loved.

Almost There!

Tuesday, January 07, 2014

I can barely walk with the pain in my hips, but I am still so happy to be this far along in our journey to Kindred. Hopefully, she will be ready to be here soon!