Love & Marriage

Wednesday, December 26, 2018

In case you've ever wondered what it's like to be married to me...I'd like to introduce Exhibit A.
All the man wanted to do was play a video game on the tablet but I was like...I have a better idea...how about no?

Don't worry about poor Berg...he learned to ignore my shenanigans many, many moons ago.

Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 25, 2018

...with the addition of this dollhouse, the bedroom of my childhood dreams is now complete. Me and Kindred sure are some lucky girls.

Twas The Night Before Christmas...

Monday, December 24, 2018

...and all through the house, not a creature was stirring...


...because Kindred passed out next to Jerry Garcia.

Crikey!!

Sunday, December 23, 2018

"It's a saltwater crocodile, you can tell by his mouth and his hat." -Berg

Elvis Meets Kindred

Saturday, December 22, 2018

Only a last minute shopping trip with my dad would lead us to Salvation Army Elvis singing in the mall. There are so many weird things about that sentence that I don't even know what to unpack first. That me or my dad were in the mall? Elvis? The only thing that made sense was how my daughter walked up in front of everyone and decided to bust a move. She danced her butt off to a few songs and she probably would have kept dancing but we needed to get going.

Our next stop was Hobby Lobby but I don't spend money there and when I explained why to my dad he said, "Dammit, Cameron...where CAN we shop now? Everybody is corrupt." After Hobby Lobby, we ran to another store and Kindred did THIS with her leg:

...which hurts me just to look at, but she is flexible like that and it was no problem for her. Her foot is backward. Still not as gross as when she walks on her toe knuckle...

Christmas on the Square Pajama Run

Friday, December 21, 2018
                  

When K stayed the night with Nova, the girls decided to keep it rolling for one more night back at our house. When they started to get a little fussy right before bed, I announced that we were doing a pajama run down to the square to see all the Christmas lights. The weather was much warmer than what is typically seasonal so pajamas were just fine for our short visit.


The girls loved it!! And, even better, they were yawning by the time we got home and went right to bed with no complaints! We are going to try again when Naiya can come up and go with us!

Dylan

Thursday, December 20, 2018

Yesterday, before I went to pick up Kindred, Dylan and I got to spend some time together. We got coffee (and I didn't feel terrible so it was heavenly!) and did some Christmas shopping. And, oh my heart...I have missed him so much. We rarely get out when it's just the two of us anymore. Either I have Kindred with me or he's out with friends or working. So, it was just amazing to be together. He's such a funny guy. If there is anyone on tv that I could relate to Dylan so you could feel like you sorta know him...I swear it would be Eric Forman from That 70's Show. He was also obsessed with Star Wars, had a friend move in before his parent's realized it, and has that same dry sarcastic sense of humor. He's actually pretty hilarious. He had me cracking up as we hoofed it around the mall. I like him. He's a good kid. Man. Kid. He grew up way too fast. I can't wait until we get to hang out again!!

Baby's 1st Sleepover

Wednesday, December 19, 2018

More often than not, this is the way we greet the day. If you're new around here, you may not be familiar with the background of Kindred's sleeping patterns, so to catch you up to speed: She doesn't therefore we can't. I am so sleepy right now. Doesn't matter what time of day you read that sentence. I have my reservations about her staying over with anyone else because of this. To get out and pick her up at 3am is not on my list of desirable ways to spend a night. But...she has been doing much better lately and loves having sleepovers with her cousin, so when my company Christmas dinner rolled around this year and my sister offered to keep her all night, I decided to roll the dice.


They were so stoked on the ride to Nova's that I began to get seriously hopeful that Kindred (and her parents) could actually pull this off.

I attended my dinner and came home to a shockingly quiet house. Me and my guy could actually sit on the couch together without a small child climbing all over us. We could kiss without a tiny hand pulling our faces apart and insisting it be a group family kiss. We could ahem without fear of interruption. And around midnight, I took two Benadryls, a fan, and went to sleep alone...like someone in a very short coma. I didn't want to chance anyone waking me up and I knew Berg's alarm would be going off before 7am.


My morning was quiet and lazy. I haven't been so self-indulgent since like 2013. And, it was long overdue. I definitely need to remember to practice more self-care than I do. I think I was pretty close to burnout. Why can't a couples vacation to a tropical island be a tax write-off? Or, covered under mental health insurance? Find a politician to run on that platform and they will win by a landslide.

Oh, to wrap it up...Kindred had a great time. We're gonna do it again. Soon.

So This Is 39

Saturday, December 08, 2018




All I wanted for my birthday last year was for Naiya's diagnosis to disappear so that we could all have her & Ash back home with us. Truthfully, I didn't feel like celebrating my birthday at all, so we didn't. I still hadn't even managed to stop crying spontaneously throughout the day. My stomach was in knots and the future was uncertain. This year, as the day drew nearer, I asked Kat and Ash to bring the girls and come just hang with me. We decided to watch Dumplin' which did not pan out as the girls were a little much to handle. So, we just talked and laughed and took some pics and listened to the girls playing. And, it was the best gift possible!!

Red

Thursday, December 06, 2018

...you should buy some bright red lipstick. -my sister

It is outside my comfort zone but a necessary course of action considering my current internal evolution.
Re-wilding. Re-energizing. Re-emerging.

Electric

Wednesday, December 05, 2018

How? I mean...how?

What Have I Been Up To?

Tuesday, December 04, 2018

Spending days with these two weirdos, who keep me laughing and, also, cleaning Kindred's room.


Naiya's one year diagnosis anniversary has come and gone. It has been emotional. So many questions that will never be answered. Life changed. And now it just is what it is. Our normal is quite overwhelming. But, we have excelled at adaptation, as a family unit, and we are celebrating Naiya's resilient spirit and having faith that she will only continue to heal and live and love and grow.

Other than that...I am easing into slow mornings filled with a steaming almond milk Dandy Blend, late lunches of mostly hearty soups with my fave gal pal, and evenings lit by a beautiful, twinkling decorated tree. And I am mindful that this is the childhood I needed every night I snuggle with Kindred in her darling little bedroom. It is never too late to tune into the children we once were and fill those holes of what we needed but didn't get with forgiveness and love.

And, did you know that this is my birthday week!?! I could not be more Sagittarius, except that I am also a Gemini rising...and that's basically just an argumentative Sagittarius with slightly less existential dread. I will be 39 on Friday. Do we ever get used to seeing those numbers climb? It is hard to believe this is the last year of my 30s. I intend to invest it wisely.

Christmas Parades

Monday, December 03, 2018

We took in the local afternoon parade and then drove a county over to see an evening parade because that is how 2018 is going when it comes to these two girls. Stuff that I may not have made an effort to do before Naiya got sick, I am more inclined to go all out for. Lest we all forget their summer bucket list...which I am sad to say concluded with one item not marked off. We never played freeze-tag. It was an administrative oversight and we bitterly regret it.


I mean, seriously...which kid is mine? Nova has her aunt's curly hair and Kat shares thinner hair with Kindred. Genetics is weird, shug.

If you follow me on Instagram, you must find the parade post and watch the Disney float. It was sincerely a spectacle to behold. Next year, we need to take a few blankets to the evening parade because the temp dropped pretty quickly and the girls cited yet another administrative oversight on my part. I'm doing my best, guys...